My warm tears continued to fog up the cool glass window. Still heavily sobbing, I wiped the side of my face with my jacket sleeve to try and stop these incessant tears. I never knew that loving someone could hurt so much. And I could have never known that Sidney Crosby would be the one person to make me realize it.
I buried my head into my jacket as I heard the driver's side door open. Sidney climbed up into his seat, blatantly staring at me, and probably confused out of his mind since I was still clearly upset by everything.
"Leigh...Leigh don't cry. Please don't cry," he said softly nudging my side to try and get me to look at him. "Please, I'm sorry...I know I was kind of a dick in there before, and I'm sorry. Please, can you at least look at me?"
Slowly, I bought my head up from behind the walls of my jacket collar. My eyes were red and puffy and my makeup had run tracks down the side of my cheeks. I looked horrible to put it somewhat nicely, but right now that was the least of my problems.
Sid reached across the center console and grabbed my hand with his, "I'm sorry Leigh, I really am...don't you believe me? I didn't mean to snap at you like that. I know I was sorta being an ass in--"
"Sort of?!" I snapped, snatching my hand out of his grip. "You have no idea how much that one little 'snap' hurt me Sid. I really, really liked you, more than you'll probably ever know. I should've known better, you're just like every guy I've ever dated. They always find a way to hurt me. I knew I should've never gone through with this..."
"With what? What are you saying Leigh? Was this some kind of bet or something? Am I some kind of game to you?" He said clearly offended by my last sentence.
"No...You're not...I was just...You're not part of a bet, at least not anymore. The night I met you at that club, I was with one of my best friends and we always have these stupid bets to see who can hook up with the better guy. When you called me up to go talk to you, I took that as my perfect opportunity. I never expected any of this to happen afterwards. I'm not the kind of girl to go out with her boyfriend every night. I'm more like the complete opposite. But ever since I met you, everything about me is changing. There's just something about you that makes me want to be different. And when I see you my heart starts beating like so fast to the point where I can barely even think straight. Everything about you brings out those stupid clichés in me, and I think it's because...because...because I love you Sid. There happy now?! I said it."
I ran a hand through my hair and nervously looked out of my window trying my hardest not to make eye contact with him. I had never said those three words to anyone, and meant them as much as I do now. My breath began to condensate on the window as I continued to stare out into the dark Pittsburgh night awaiting some kind of response from Sidney.
I quickly turned my head around as I saw him get out of the car. My heart sank to its all time low. I knew right then and there I had messed everything up between us for good, and that my whole let's spill my guts tactic had failed me. My face was met with a cold gust of air against my already slightly red cheek. I noticed that my door was open, and Sid was waiting outside the car with his arms wide open.
My heart fluttered beneath my chest seeing his big green eyes, and his smile as I climbed out of my seat and jumped into his arms. I buried my face into his jacket and felt a couple tears slide down my cheek. Sidney leaned down and gently kissed the top of my head making me realize that no matter what my mind was telling me, something in my heart let me know that this was right. I lifted my head off of his chest and gazed up into his perfect green eyes.
For the first time in my entire life, I was in love and vulnerable. But even scarier, was the fact that I was perfectly okay with it with Sid's arms tightly wrapped around me. I had never felt this way about someone, EVER, and to tell you the truth it was pretty scary how much I liked him. The feeling of his warm smile against my skin made every doubt erase from my mind.
He placed his index finger beneath my chin and lifted it up so my lips could softly meet with his. I could feel my knees grow weaker with every touch of his cool lips against mine, and the tip of my fingers were sparking with some kind of tingling. He tilted his head down and continued to gently caress my lips with his, leaving me even more mesmerized than before by his amazing kissing abilities. We pulled away simultaneously for the first time feeling satisfied by each others presence. He leaned his forehead down against mine and his toothy smile radiated against my cool skin. I placed my hand lightly onto the side of his rapidly reddening cheek which caused him to flinch back a bit from the touch of my frozen fingers. I smiled back at him and almost as if on cue, he said the only thing I'd been dying to hear from him all night.
"I love you too Leigh," he said creating a white cloud of condensed air in between us. I smiled through it and my lips found their way onto his for another quick kiss. He curled his lips into a smile against mine as he pulled away and ran around to the driver's side of the car. I let out a small laugh at his sudden jolt of excitement and got back into the car.
"Where's the fire?" I asked sarcastically as he clipped in his seatbelt and pulled out of the parking lot.
"You'll see," he said sending a devilish smile in my direction.
I nodded and kept quiet for the rest of the ride. We pulled into the driveway of an unfamiliar home, at least for me but before I could even think about where we were, Sid was opening up my door and pulling up the front steps.
"Sid," I said slightly laughing as he opened the door and pulled me down the hallway, "whose house is this?"
As soon as I finished asking him he closed a dark wooden door behind me and flicked on the light. His hands found the side of my hips and pulled me in closer. I smiled up at him as he leaned his head down closer to mine.
"It's my house...just got it this year...you like?" He smiled down at me leaning in even closer, with his lips barely centimeters away from mine.
"Yeah, yeah I do," I whispered back, "But I like you a lot more." I smiled one last time before closing the gap between us.
He aggressively began to respond, while he mumbled "Good" into my lips, only making me laugh a little more. His lips were passionately attacking mine as he began to push me forward towards his bed. My legs hit the side of his bed first and he gently knocked me down onto the sea of covers, not once breaking the lock of his lips from mine. I curled my lips into a smile against his as I felt the weight from his body on top of me. Our lips continued to battle back and forth for some kind of dominance until the need for air overcame the both of us.
He rolled off of me and leaned his back against the head of the bed. I smiled up at him and crawled my way back up to his side, nuzzling my face into his dress shirt. I could feel his smile radiating from above me and my heartbeat sped up with each passing second. But by now, that was starting to become my natural feeling whenever I was around Sidney.
He leaned down and placed a soft kiss on the top of my head. "Stay here with me tonight?"
I shot my head up to look at him as soon as those five words left his mouth. I had a feeling I knew why he wanted me to stay, and I surprisingly didn't want it to be that way.I knew if I did stay, I'ddo something to mess this all up, and wasn't about to mess up the best thing that's happened to me in, forever."I-I dunno Sid, if the only reason you want me to stay here is because you want to--"
"Who said I wanted to do that?" He interrupted tightening his grip on my center. "Maybe I just need some company. The house does tend to get kind of lonely. We don't have to do anything. We can just cuddle up here and watch a movie or something. Sound good? Please Leigh, I really want you to stay."
I slowly blinked and sighed. He really knew how to convince a girl to stay. "Fine, but I need something to sleep in cause I refuse to sleep in my jeans."
He let out a small laugh and released me as he got up off the bed and walked over to his drawer. He pulled out one of sections and quickly threw a shirt and pair of his boxers, landing them perfectly in front of me.
"Don't worry," he said walking towards me, "I've got you covered." And with that he leaned in and gave me another short but fiery kiss.
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